We can't do it all... but we try!

Everyday I'm hustlin'...

 No seriously. When I was a working mom (hubs stayed home with big for three years and 2 months, and little for 2 months) I used to say if I stayed home I would just get fat and sit around all day. I worked. I loved working. I had no idea what a SAHM did all day. Let's be honest. I had no idea what the hell my husband did all day! Somehow, he managed to have a career in medical sales, AND take care of our kid. He's amazing. Have I mentioned that? There also may have been lots of TV involved, and school twice a week. :) I kid. He's an amazing dad, and I'm lucky I got to work with him staying home, and he's lucky to have spent time with big one on one for so long.

 

I did always feel the need to defend our untraditional way of life. Like somehow, my husband was less of a man because he stayed home with our kid. I'm sorry, fuck that. He's more of a man than most. He worked. Took care of the home. Played trains all day long (and if you have kids of your own you know playing with a toddler is like playing with a member of the Vietcong. "YOU play trains! YOU play trains NOW". I can't take credit for that joke fyi. I'm clearly not funny. Stolen from some comedian long before I understood that this would actually become a part of my life) and created a bond with our first born that will rival partnerships everywhere. 

 

Bottom line. Being a sahp is hard as shit. I thought I would stay home and hang all day long. Cook some stuff. Clean. Look hot. Hah. I was clueless. Take for instance today...

 

4:45am Up with little

5:30 Cleaning kitchen/Unload dishwasher

6am Playing with kids/Get Hubs off to work

7 am Making pancakes, feeding kids, cleaning kitchen

7:30 Get big pooping, dressed, lunches, teeth brushed, etc.

8 Drop Big at school

8:30 Prepare dinner

9:30 Clean kitchen

9:30-11:30 Play with little, loads and loads, and loads of laundry

11:30 Make lunch

11:45 Feed Little

12 Clean Up

12:15 Grocery Store

12:45 Pick up Big

1:30 Potty Big

1:40 Read stories

2 Put Big to bed/Bottle Little

2-4 Laundry, clean bathrooms, wash floors

4:15 Snacks/Get ready to leave

4:30 Drive to karate

(Drop little at daycare, take big to karate, run 2.5 miles, pick big up, pick little up, kids in car)

6 Home to eat

7 kids to bath

7:30 Clean kitchen

8 Make lunches

8:30 Put big back to bed for the 93492384902384 time

Finally shower for the day, put on a sports bra, and buttonless pants. Youfancyhuh?

 

I'm not saying I'm special. Or I'm good at what I do. I'm saying I was misinformed. I thought I could do more. I thought I would have downtime. I thought I would love being a SAHM. But, truth be told... I don't love it. I'm not being ungrateful. I know there are lots of people who would kill to be in my position. But, we don't make tons of money. We bust our asses to have a parent stay home with our kids. It doesn't mean that we think parents who daycare are bad. I'm not. I'm just personally not strong enough. Or I'm too much of a control freak. Either way, it's my issue. Hubs and I have been SERIOUSLY thinking about me going back to work next year. Even if it's just part time. I'm a MUCH better parent when I'm a working one.

 

Only time will tell. But, I do know one thing. We all have the same 24 hours. I made time to work out. I made time to make a dinner from scratch. I made time to sit on the floor and play with my kids....Because one day, I won't have that time. I'm trying to make do with what I have. Same as every other parent. We can't do it all, but we all try!